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  1. Don Cheke
    18 September 2025 @ 9:33 pm

    Thanks for the interesting read, Suhail. I could certainly relate to the bits about perfectionism, wanting that perfect shot or result, but for me I never really had the patience for that like I saw in others. As much as I wanted to be perfect, I wanted it quickly – a quick artistic fix as I have always called it.

    As I was reading further in your blog post, I kept thinking how I have always lived horizontally, just going with the flow and not making a fuss about my destination. As I have mentioned elsewhere, my low self-esteem and fear had lots to do with that, but I met enough people through the years that believed enough in me to offer me invitations for paths to follow. In the end, or nearing the later stages of life, I realize that I could never have planned how well my life has turned out.

    I like how you stated, “My abstract art oil pastel series became a metaphor for this kind of authentic living. Each mark I made without overthinking it was like a small act of trust, trust in the process, trust in my intuition, trust that not everything needs to be figured out in advance.” That is such a powerful realization!

    One thing that I need to learn is that not every art session has to produce a piece worth showing. Sometimes it’s okay to chalk it up to simple experimentation. Some days, there just isn’t anything to be revealed – and that is okay.

    My hardest times come when I have just finished a creative stretch – some blog posts written and queued, numerous art pieces complete. The flow seems to have stemmed and I feel like I will never have another creative thought. It can really get me down, and although I allow those feelings, in my heart I know that I will be moved again – that has been proven time and again over many years.

    As always, I appreciate your honesty and openness in your writing and sharing. I like your three pieces! Thanks for showing them.

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    • Suhail
      20 September 2025 @ 8:14 am

      Thank you Don for your thoughtful comment. I really appreciate it. I do think perfectionism is something many people deal with. Some people seem to thrive on it, others find it tough and sometimes it’s just an up-and-down struggle for all of us.

      Those ups and downs in creativity, well, that’s just part of the whole process, isn’t it? I’ve almost come to expect them and maybe even enjoy them sometimes.

      I completely get what you mean about wanting that “quick fix” but also wanting things to feel just right. It is tiring trying to balance those two. Your way of “living horizontally”, going with the flow, sounds freeing and it’s brought you some good surprises along the way. That’s really what matters.

      As for painting, I’ve let go of chasing a quick fix over the years. My paintings usually take ages. I can spend days or weeks before I call something finished. But I like that slow “back and forth”. It keeps things interesting for me.

      When you said you feel like you’ll never have another creative thought, I’ve had those days too. I think being creative isn’t really about always having new ideas, but more about being curious and willing to try things out, even if it sometimes doesn’t work. It’s about trusting in yourself and looking a little deeper, like you said.

      Thanks again for sharing your story and being so open here. Really pleased you enjoyed the oil pastel pieces. Wishing you loads more creative days, especially the ones where you’re just making art for the fun of it.

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